Come Home
When I was a child, the scariest thing I would hear was, “That’s just the way it is.” It was a feeling of no possibility for change or hope. I had so many dreams, but I fell into the trap of limiting beliefs because of the fear of being different. I became afraid of myself and my sensitive nature.
If I were to go against my heart and choose to silence myself to stay comfortable, I would be sharing that same message.
I cannot because I am aware of the importance of authentic connection, love, and compassion that I was longing for as a child.
By taking responsibility, I am learning to face my own fears and ways of choosing control for external comfort, which allows space for understanding, compassion, and forgiveness.
I am learning to let go of the need to be liked or understood because there is no greater feeling than finding my voice and the connection of home within.
What is faced with love evolves and expands to light. When more people are willing to face their shadows and become aware of the lack of acceptance internally, less fear, hatred, and greed will be present externally.
All life has a unique vision for expansion if given the space and creative freedom to blossom authenticity.
By using my voice and sharing my story, I hope to create a healing space for others to recognize their own inner power.
Inner Warrior
We all have the power to create. We can no longer silence the part of us that expresses, creates, and nurtures.
It’s important to understand and instill the value of creativity, sensitivity, and model the importance of heart-centered work. Feeling is our inner compass to guide us to act with compassion.
Creative choice is how we show up, present ourselves, and honor what we hold in our hearts. Knowledge and technology can produce, but without the intention of the heart, productivity remains unchanged and creation is shallow. We can all feel it and can now easily see the destruction that happens when we are not taught to reflect and feel what is right and true before taking action.
For a healthy, sustainable future, the intuitive element and heart-centered foundation must be nurtured and cared for. I have realized that it’s my responsibility to understand my own masculine and feminine essence because both are equally important and what we choose to create has the potential to sustain or destroy life. Anything of value takes time, and the foundation cannot be overlooked.
A healing message from the masculine and feminine within:
Feminine:
I am asking for support. I was afraid of my power for so long because it has been taken advantage of and I have been used for my giving nature. I know it is not your fault. You haven’t learned the proper way to care for me. But, I have been speaking to you; are you listening? I am valuable and sustainable just by being in love. What I provide is abundant, but you are taught to always want more. I will no longer allow disrespect, greed, and anger to change me. I will continue to come back wild and free, stronger in my power.
I prefer to be a gentle leader. I do not wish to dominate, but if I have to, I will roar. I am connected to my children; they feel the discomfort and need me to be well. In their innocence, they can see the beauty already within and all around them. They feel how far we are from the truth. We tell them to sit still, remain silent, and strive to be more, and they suffer in abundance, feeling like there is never enough.
They are longing for strong leadership and new ways to model how to focus, find balance within, respect each other, and work together, remembering that all beings are beautiful and necessary on this earth. You are the leader within.
If you slow down and find space to understand and adapt, you will notice that I am always trying to show you the beauty in the bird's song, the blooming flower, and the wilted leaf—the impermanence of it all. I am trying to make you aware of the truth about what brings healing and how important it is to work together peacefully and honorably. Will you continue to tear me down, speak poorly of me, and allow fear and destruction?
I can no longer bear the weight and observe in silence, waiting for you to wake up to my voice. I am here to nurture, protect, and offer support. How can I provide if I am barren and depleted? I have been conserving my power, silently weeping, and healing my own wounds. My energy is valuable, I am irreplaceable, and I sustain life. We must move forward in balance to teach new ways. I deserve to be seen and heard, and I am worthy of respect.
Masculine:
I now understand why you long for more. It is not enough to exist. How can you continue to thrive when you’re constantly being judged for your harvest and beauty while being expected to survive without a voice when you hold so much wisdom longing to be heard? Thank you for giving love so freely. I never learned how important it was to feel emotions and release resentment. It became hard to witness your deepest feelings and listen to your fears because it brought mine to the surface. I now have the strength and maturity to take leadership over my own being. You are valuable just because you exist. I know you feel so deeply because you are aware of the truth. I have confidence in your vision and trust that you know what is best for growth and sustainability. I can sit with you and hold you through the storms while you create. For so long you have been silenced, witnessing the destruction and feeling uneasy; it is time to express yourself to be whole and healthy. I see it now and understand that children feel the truth and need the inner strength to keep their innocence and dreams alive. I can gently comfort them, listen to their cries, and lead by example so they know how to care for and respect you. I will model how important it is to be still and listen so they can learn to care for all creation.
I am here. I care. I see you; I am listening.
I don’t understand the path, but I trust in you to help guide the way. I can clearly see that fighting to be right and claiming that I know the way is not the answer; love does not take ownership; power is not external, it is co-creation and balanced action. We can work together, communicate, and learn as we go. I will give you space to create and bloom in love, and we will bring your vision to life. We can grow together in unity. You are safe.
Never judge a book by its cover.
When you meet someone, be kind. You have no idea how hard they fought to be in your presence.
I was born feeling it all. I didn’t like to be held because I could feel someone was sad or in a bad mood. I never understood why I would come home from school and my whole body would be vibrating from absorbing energy around me. I couldn’t sit still, get comfortable or find ways to communicate my reality. I sensed everything. I had a fear of abandonment and around the age of 5, I remember seeing a dead mouse in a trap and not being able to separate myself from the experience. My first thought was you can just be little, be somewhere by mistake and lose your life because of it. It terrified me that I was alone in my experience of deep sadness. Everything seemed harsh to me. I sensed energy and being in large groups of people was overwhelming. I disliked competition and had asthma, so breathing was difficult. The only time I felt peace was when I was creating, in nature or alone.
The more overwhelming life became, the more I started numbing my feelings and isolating myself. I had a knee injury at the beginning of middle school and became depressed and gained weight. From a very young age, I tried really hard to change my appearance. Not because I cared that much, I considered insects beautiful. I just wanted to feel understood, be comfortable and belong.
I went from being a bright-eyed little free spirit with big dreams to being made fun of for being ugly, tall and awkward and then, when I finally lost weight in an unhealthy way, I was told that I was so beautiful. People made assumptions that I was always that way and never really tried to get to know me on a deeper level.
By the time I went out on my own, I felt so disconnected and uncomfortable because my body was never a safe place. I didn’t learn to set boundaries and I had a belief that I was to be seen, not heard, so I was silent and preferred not to stand out for fear of rejection or ridicule. I was sexually harassed, drugged, and taken advantage of in my late adolescence. My body always seemed to be my only attribute, even though there was so much more under the surface that I wanted to share, but connecting with people was terrifying for me. I found ways to get by and had many friendships, but I could never really deeply express myself or feel safe. My fear became so intense that I would have no choice but to shut down and isolate myself.
When I became a mother, everything changed. I had no choice but to help myself. How could I be a role model for children when I felt so disconnected? I surrendered, prayed and went into a deep healing and awakening process. By reconnecting with my intuition, I was able to understand what was happening and realize that I had been awakening to my inner guidance since childhood, it was a gift. I fought my battles alone in silence without tools, support or guidance, so I could tell a story of the medicine that is available by going within and reconnecting with nature.
Now at 42, I can finally recognize that I am not the opinions of others, and I am able to feel when something isn’t right and trust my intuition and body. I am healthy enough to know that I have always been beautiful and that I have so much more to offer than my physical appearance. I am proud of the strong, sensitive and compassionate human I am today.
I am not here to say I know the way. My hope is to help others feel less alone and know that it is never too late to take your power back. What happened to you does not define your life.
I have a passion to share what I have learned with others, because how can we heal the Earth and be an example of peace when we are fighting ourselves?
I can now see and define my worth, I found my voice and I finally feel safe enough to trust that I have the courage to connect with others by sharing my truth. Healing happens in relationships, not isolation.
Be kind, we’re all learning as we go.
Just Be in 2023
Love is always there even when it’s not visible. The soil, the seed and the flower all contain Love, the roots are the connection. Challenging experiences are the fertilizer for growth and I attract what I need by being.
I intend to let go, Love and just be in 2023.
In 2018 I began a deep dive into a spiritual awakening that would reveal a lot about what I had been afraid of and hiding from. I began to question a lot, my identity, what it all means, what I really need and why I was feeling so off balance. My hands were breaking out in a rash and inflamed. I could barely bend my fingers and touching anything was painful.
I was extremely grateful to have the presence of two amazing beautiful souls to learn and grow with but I was exhausted by all of the opinions, information, emotions and changes to my body. I ignored my feelings and questioned myself more than I trusted. I became depleted and depressed because I never learned how to understand my needs, listen to my body and trust my inner guidance. I was unable to remain present and smile most of the time because I was worried and seeking knowledge more than listening to my heart. I prayed but forgot how to listen.
One night when I was awake with my daughter, through tears I asked for guidance. I started to realize that my emotional wellbeing was the root of my physical well being. I learned more about my energetic hygiene and healing and started spending more time in nature with my daughters. By paying attention to my body I noticed that I held my breath a lot, and that I have always lived tensing myself in a constant state of anxiety.
I began to receive messages and I had an urge to write them down. The messages were positive and affirming and I didn’t understand why I was receiving them at the time. With reflection and growth I began to see with clarity the meaning of what was unknown to me at the time.
As I started healing, listening and letting go I was intuitively led to eat a plant based diet and began to feel the benefits of taking care of my whole being. The more I focused on my wellness the more I started to become aware of the beauty around me again and trust myself to focus on my intentions. I started seeing signs that were significant to me, when I found a feather I knew that it was a message. I was intrigued and I couldn’t get it out of my head, this is when I wrote Nature Speaks.
I then found the book “Signs” by Laura Lynne Jackson and I was led to schedule an appointment with Kelly (Kelly Melka Wellness) who confirmed my intuitive nudges and connection. Her authenticity and kindness provided me the courage to trust and gain confidence within myself. Reflecting, I can see how I have grown and I am grateful.
It has taken me years to feel comfortable enough to speak my truth for fear of being misunderstood. It is not my goal to try to convince anyone to believe my reality or try to tell anyone how to be, love or see. By sharing my experiences I believe it can potentially help others feel less alone. It is a message of the importance of believing what is true for you even if it’s different.
There is no lonelier feeling than hiding your reality and pretending it’s okay on the surface. I want to be understood and to understand so it is my responsibility to live my truth.
My definitions of love, success and life have changed and will continue to change as I grow because I am alive and always learning. I have peeled away a lot of what wasn’t me and created space and inner strength in the process.
I now know the power and responsibility I have to create. I can either create consciously or unconsciously, that is my choice. I am choosing to accept every part of myself with compassion.
I know that I am never alone even if I feel misunderstood by those around me. God, and all of the love from my family of light surrounds me. I am learning to trust, surrender my thoughts of how I think my path should appear and listen.
Love and Peace in 2023.
Awareness is Beauty
Whatever you bring into awareness is creating your life. That is how powerful your presence is. Don’t spend your life thinking of what has or hasn’t happened. Let it go.
What type of picture are you painting? Are you falling back into patterns of distraction, judgement and fear? Are you hiding away, ignoring your inner guidance, pleasing others and trying to control their opinion of you?
Breathe. Your heart, mind, body and soul have had enough. Take back your creative power, love yourself unconditionally. Become aware of what is calling out for your love. Your thoughts and your actions are impacting everything in your presence. Find beauty in whatever appears in front of you now, your life. Focus on the reflection of your inner nature, your soul.
Awareness is Beauty.
Strength in Sensitivity
When you are highly sensitive you tend to grow up apologizing for your feelings or avoid sharing your views because they are different. Being misunderstood or labeled as weak makes you feel the need to change yourself to fit in with society’s definition of being popular or successful.
The truth is that your sensitivity is strength and you can’t change it no matter how hard you try. When you start to identify and trust your own feelings you become aware of how everything is connected. You can feel the need for peace and comfort in your environment and at a larger scale. This awareness is important and it can help identify what is necessary for change.
I am learning through my own journey that it’s key to teach children to honor their sensitivity, feel their emotions and to use that guidance to determine what is true for them.
Intellectual intelligence is so important and technology is amazing, but we also need to embrace sensitivity as part of the learning process. If we teach the importance of intention before inventing, our children could learn to put more focus on the impact of their goals before they decide how to share their unique gifts with the world.
We all have our own strengths to offer. It’s about learning from each other, balance, embracing our differences and working together. Feelings are not a sign of weakness, they guide us to use our intellectual intelligence with compassion.
Learning as I Grow
Growth started happening when I stopped trying to fix everything around me, I started putting the focus on myself.
Now I am able to determine what is mine and what isn’t, I feel more connected to my heart and everything is starting to make sense. I am learning that all the experiences that I had in my past have prepared me to help others that feel the same way. I am learning that all the times that I was trying to fix everything around me was a cry for me to love myself. Furthermore, I am learning that everything in life has been a lesson to help me grow in to the mother that my children need and that it’s okay to not be perfect.
Now that I am piecing myself back together I am realizing the lessons that I want to teach my children. I want to be my best for them, so I am always going to push myself to grow and follow my heart because I want them to do the same.
I also want to live more in the moment and notice the important things in life. The things that you could never own, like the beauty of nature and kindness that we all can share.
Welcome
Hello, welcome to my blog! My name is Daidra and my goal is to share my journey, inspiration, passions and creations with you in hopes that we can connect and inspire each other!
Today is my grandmother’s Birthday in Heaven. She was a very creative, hard working and generous woman. When I was a child she would ask me to a make gift for her Birthday to foster my creativity and teach me to give. I was so critical of my creations but she loved everything that I made for her.
I would spend a lot of time at her house. We would make jewelry together and have conversations about my future. She said that she pictured me becoming an artist and living in the city walking around for inspiration. We would even look at catalogs together so she could show me the vibe of what she pictured me wearing. I loved our conversations and I always felt like I had her full attention. It was such a gift to have someone who listened and cared so deeply.
Nana passed away when I was a young adult just starting out on my path. I remember when she was diagnosed with cancer she said she wasn’t worried and that she knew that I would be okay. (I wasn’t so sure at the time) It was heartbreaking to see her health decline and know that our time was limited.
I’ve grown a lot since then and I know that she is with me. I can hear her words and guidance and it brings me comfort to know how close she still is. The other day I found a picture of her and when I see a turtle or find a feather and I know she is watching over me.
Today, on her Birthday I am reminded of her belief in me and it makes me want to go for it, make her proud and share my true self. It’s a message to use the voice that I have always wanted to share but kept to myself. Thanks for always believing in me, Nana. It feels fitting to post this on your Birthday.
Love always, Daidra
